Celebrating is easy, it's the preparations and cleaning afterwards that is tiring. And serving everyone and being in 5 places at a time. I've spent my whole weekend back home, entertaining people, cooking, cleaning. I don't mind, because we had a really really nice time. I've spent a fortune on food alone, but everyone showed up and it was absolutely lovely. We had an outdoor picnic and, this year, even the weather stayed fine (I had rain every birthday the past 5 years!). We drank and ate and talked and laughed. Lovely! The right way to celebrate. And today, I'm a bit sore and a bit nostalgic.
I'm 28 today. And everyone remembered. And it just makes you feel loved and appreciated. And just writing it down, 28, it makes me feel a bit old, too. Like, at 28 you're supposed to have a career, and a house, and be married and have children.
I'm not married, even doubt I'll ever be, since my current partner doesn't seem to keen on it, and well, it doesn't really matter to me at this moment, either, or I'd be pushing it, and I am not. Because really, what difference would it make?
I do have a job, but it's not really a career. Nor do I want it to be. I'm not even sure this is what I want to be doing, although I like it and I'm good at it. But I do feel I am meant for something else. Like I dream of a little house (and no, I do not have a house, not even a flat, we're just renting) with a big kitchen where I'd cook and bake away and maybe make a business out of it. Like a home bistro' or an online cake sale or something, as long as it's organic and vegan.
And I don't have children and I don't really see me having children. I know I'd make a good mother, but just the thought of it is utterly bizzare. But, at least for some time, my family can stop buzzing me about it, cause everyone else is getting family and I do believe 2 babies in the family in 1 year are more than enough. Oh right, forgot to tell. Not only is my soon-to-be-sister-in-law (she's 30) having a baby (and is absolutely thrilled about it and making me an aunt), but I just learnt my first cousin of 24 is pregnant as well! (and I do have a feeling she is not so thrilled about it, since she's been all bitchy last weekend, well, I wouldn't be so thrilled about it today, not to mention at 24!). And the two of them are both due on the same day, can you believe it? I still can't.
Well, anyhow, my birthday celebration was on Saturday and I did some small baking (recipe follows) and got some amazing gifts, even though I told everyone not to bring me anything at all. Some respected that and I was so happy about it and they even asked me to do the same for them, cause we're all just so sick of this gifts, like, now you need to think about what to buy, and go search for it, and what if they don't like it and it's just stress. And I don't want that, I just want to gather everyone on the same place at the same time so I get to actually see people and talk to them, cause I rarely have time to do that anymore, since I live away and I feel like an outcast most of the time, not knowing what is going on in my own family.
Some of the amazing gifts I got include a retro pasta maker to make my own lasagna and spaghetti (can you imagine??), a beautiful japanese tea pot, an Amazon gift certificate, so I can buy me kindle and other books and chocolates, flowers and money, of course. And some Maca Root powder that fits lovely into my exisiting superfoods collection:
All in all, it was a lovely weekend. After the picnic me and my boyfriend stayed on location, just camping in a trailer. And when we woke up in the morning it was like camping on the sea shore. I did however manage to injure myself, several times even, like bruises and cuts, but the most painful happened when playing with my dog, when I managed to fell on a slippery hill side - the ground just dissappeared under foot and I fell directly on my right arm & shoulder. The dog stopped running immediately and turned to me, tilting her head and just looking at me like "wtf? are you alright?". I honestly didn't know. At first, I thought I dislocated my shoulder, since I fell rather hard on it. But it seems my bones are tough and the only thing that hurts today is my upper arm muscles that took the blow. But boy, does it hurt! I cannot do much with the right arm, but I've seen worse before and even this will go away with time.
Until then, I'll just indulge in an orange-flavored dark chocolate thins I got that are absolutely yummi!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
Yeah, we are obviously getting old :D I get you, when I was younger (way younger) I'd imagined a different life for myself than I have now. But that's how it is. :)
ReplyDeleteAs for children, do you mean that children are not for you now and in the near future or you are not planning to have a kid at all?
Anyways, I'm glad you had a great birthday :)
Just today I thought: wouldn't it be lovely to own a business to organise events like parties and weddings and do the catering?? :)) so not what I'm doing right now, but who knows. When you know what you want it's easier to follow the dream. Cause, like, you need to have a dream, first. And it's not like I have any for real.
ReplyDeleteAbout children - not that I'm not planning them (I mean, I am not for now), but I just don't see it. I'm not like crazy about them, I don't get gooiey over babies and if anyone tries to stuff them into my arms I just go stiff and like "oookaay, that was fun, please take it over now". I mean, if it happened, I'd surely keep it and be a real good mom, cause I do need to take care of everyone and feed them and cloth them and stuff, but I just can't see me producing a baby. I don't have the urge or desire to become a mom, like so many of my age do. At least, they KNOW they want children, I'm like ... meeh, whatever.